Yesterday I felt a range of emotions. I felt happiness as I watched the grandchildren work at a lemonade stand and wait and wait for business. The experience was a growing one for them and also fun. I felt joy as the older grandchildren interacted and the babies smiled. I felt awe as I hiked with the young women and saw a beautiful scene at the top of our hike. The mountains, the trees, the reflection of light on the water, the friendly ducks, and the rocks all brought me a deep feeling of peace and gratitude. But first, I mean earlier in the day, I felt anguish and heart-wrenching sympathy at an appointment with my brother at the Hunstman Cancer Institute. Never before have I seen someone in such agonizing pain and I wanted to take it from him or somehow relieve him of it. How sorry I am to see him suffer so much! He had been told by an "alternative medical source" that the pain he was experiencing was not due to cancer, but the worsening and relentless pain is in fact a direct result of the cancer wedging into his bone and causing two fractures. He has lived with the raw pain of two bone fractures and he has tried to carry on. Until yesterday. Yesterday the pain became unbearable and sweat dripped down his brow as he pleaded for relief.
Life brings with it a range of emotions, each to be accepted and processed.
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